Talk about a rollercoaster of emotions! The adoption agency called us last week to explain a discrepancy in information.
A huge miscommunication.
Sitota (our daughter in waiting) is two and a half years old. She is not a 6 month old baby. When her file arrived at the adoption agency the date of her birth was wrong. So they called us with that information.
When we got the first phone call we were so excited. We started to see a baby girl in our arms. We started to tell people about getting her home before her first birthday.
On the second phone call I felt heartbroken, confused, at peace, doubtful, angry.
And so it is with the adoption process. We have been at this for more than 5 years. Our first adoption agency went bankrupt and lost a huge amount of the money we had given. We have had our own doubts and questions about our adoption, our marriage, our life.
We had less than 10% of the money required to move forward.
But we decided to continue.
Isabela Sitota is our daughter.
We knew she was the one for us.
She is the gift God told us about.
And most children that don’t get adopted by age 3, never get adopted.
We will not let that be her case. She was not born to be another statistic. She was not created to be without a family. God always knew she was ours.
The adoption agency gave us room to think. We could say no and wait for another referral.
But how could we no? When saying Yes felt like the Godliest thing we had ever done.
How could we deny her our home when God the Father has always said Yes to being our home and our Abba.
Adopting one child won’t change the world: but for that child, the world will change.
When things don’t go as planned, we always have two options: we can either trust God, or not.
Life is full of unpredictable situations and serious disappointments. But we always get to choose.
And we are choosing to trust God even when our emotions scream to us not to.
Honestly, this is a rollercoaster, and I’m either going to lift up my hands and enjoy the ride, or squeeze and scream till the torture ends.
Out of all the people who decide to adopt, only 2% go through with it. Most of the time the paperwork and the huge financial demand is overwhelming.
But now I have seen the face of my daughter! Her eyes are huge and full of hope. Her smile is absolutely captivating (can’t show you pictures yet, but trust me… captivating!)
Now we are SUPER excited that she is 2. She will grow up close in experiences with her older brothers (and she’s the only girl in her orphanage so she loves playing with boys her age).
The best gifts don’t need a return label. And I will do whatever it takes to bring her home, surely and quickly.
I’m sitting in the front row of this rollercoaster. And I’m trusting God the whole way through.
“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.” – James 1:27